Being introverted is a misunderstood disposition which I find brings many challenges and triumphs in my life and career. The need to create a tranquil space where I can think or hear my thoughts is something I crave to do even subconsciously. This has been labelled as me lacking in interpersonal skills by colleagues, being viewed as proud and distant in groups. As an introvert this kind of judgement or misunderstanding may throw us into a frenzy of research into Emotional Intelligence Theories and self help quests. The worst thing you can do is tell us the problems we have, we think and overthink about them until we burn out or find a solution. For me, to change would be to deny self and I don’t know any other way to be.
As an artist and performer, I have been accused of being an extrovert but as introverts do, we learn to play that card to survive and not appear stand-offish. My thoughts consume me so much that I may appear detached from the going-ons around me especially when I lack the interest to engage, but on the contrary I am deeply thinking through or past the point of engagement.
In a meeting,one class teacher proclaimed that this academic year he would like to challenge “Joe” to be more social and he is going to place him in many groups for collaboration. As much as collaboration has its place in the educational experience, the thoughts that introverts could be stifled or lost in the chatter. And usually I have found that working in collaboration with colleagues on projects can be exhausting as the chatterboxes usually leave things for the last minute or do not commit to the end and furthermore talk about the process instead of getting on with it.
Joe, whom I teach, has learning challenges and the most brilliant ideas and creativity. He writes fiction short stories at his own will and during his free time although being told he lacks the ability to concentrate on one thing at a time. He has trained himself to master the art of channeling his thoughts and creations onto paper regardless of his dyslexia.
One afternoon Joe looked at me and said “I’m just tired of hearing people talk and them getting in my space, I cant think.” I remember feeling the same way just moments before. To be introverted is difficult in such an extremely extroverted world you almost have to fight to be yourself and moments of extroversion make you feel exhausted at the end of day.
The best parts about myself are due to my introverted nature, the deep thoughtfulness I put into everything, the unfailing endurance I daily apply to my commitments and goals, the ability to be reflective about all aspects of myself and the constant reminder of my purpose and vision..As an educator I ensure my classroom reflects the possibility to nurture all natures.